For the pas 4 and a half years now, I'v been living with horrible back pain because of what i'm guessing is Dumbass Karma. I suffered of a Dual herniated lumbar disc, which basically means, my spine is dying slowly but surely. I'v had a surgery done January 14th 2008 and now almost 2 years later i'm still waiting for my second surgery in hopes of getting rid of my disability and the pain that comes with it.
Recently, I'v been in more pain than ever before, so much so that I'm contemplating not leaving the house until surgery day. I wake up in the morning with the worst imaginable pain, in my leg, numbness in my toes, my ass cheeks burn so much i feel like i got rammed by a truck. I can't sneeze without getting weak kneed, I yawn my back hurts. Anyhoot, you get the picture, I'm in pain, cripple and fucking angry.
I keep calling the hospital and all I get are stupid replies like 'We're sorry, there's nothing we can do at the moment, you just gotta wait your turn, you are not the only patient doctor X has'. Which is perfectly fine, but then I ask what type of patients for my neurosurgeon usually take care of and she replies 'Brain tumor victims' not only that, most of them are FUCKING OLD FARTS. So tell me, HONESTLY. What's more important, an old 60yearold's brain tumor, or a 24 year old's unfathomable pained herniated back problem, WHICH by the way, is a 2 hour surgery only. So tell me, is it that bad for me to wish for all those patients to die in order for me to get that fucking surgery I'v been waiting for over 2 years ?
Anyways, with that off my chest, I feel a little better, mentally.
Ciao~
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