DAMN IT ALL TO HELL

I'm so sick of having to always having to be careful of each and every movements that I do. This damn leg of mine will be the death of me someday. I used to think that medication like Advil, Tylenol or Aspirin were bullshit and it was all in your head, if you believe it'll work then it will, that type of bs. But, these past couple of weeks since my surgery, I am forced to keep taking them on a daily basis because without them I would be in so much pain I might jump off a bridge. Medication day and night, I'm sick of it. I want to be healthy like when I was 15, running, jumping, swimming, I miss it so much just thinking about it makes me sad. Will I ever be able to do sports or return to the gym, I don't know, I sure do hope so though. All I can do now is rest, take it easy and simply wait it out. Ugh!!!~...